always.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

if only i could punch you...
if only.
make you feel what im feeling now.
but i know im much better than that.
heart pain, i tell you.
i seriously dont give a shit anymore.
nothing i can do about it.
let it be ah.
but you just wait.
i'll make you tell me.
just wait.

fck man.
i miss the boys.
back then everything was alright.
everyone was so carefree.
no nonsense.
now?
drifting apart.
each with their own pile of poop to handle.
shit.
i miss those times like crazy man.
shit ah.
aku ni dah macam invisible...
drives me insane that im helpless.
i hate it when i feel helpless.
coz there's nothing you can do but feel helpless.
if you're sad or bored,
there are things you can do to make yourself feel better.
but if you feel helpless,
you're just helpless.
you just cant help it but to feel helpless.
you feel me?

im an angry person inside, right now.
i think.
i think im too exhausted of taking all the poop thrown at me,
that i've forgotten to love myself.
to learn to love myself more.
i think i need to learn to be more patient.
to be patient enough to go through this phase in life.
i need to be stronger.
emotionally stronger.
seek for guidance.
patience.
insya'allah everything will turn out fine.
ya Allah, help me.

now...
i need to go type that french thingy for tmr.
pfft.

thks for 'listening' to me, dearest blogger.
you know i know they dont know.

in the words of The Beatles...
and in the end the love you take is equal to the love you make.
(mcm pernah dgr eh fasha?heh...)

bye for now.

Friday, January 25, 2008

it's been a very busy week!
and the weekends are finally here.
but there's still so much to do.
organise,prioritise,compromise.
insya'allah boleh beb.
but of course i still need time to chill(:

im back on track now.
and i think im almost there.
almost.
i hope i'll stay on track.
i know it's going to get better.
insya'allah.
just roll with the punches,
and be a man!(:

i have to collect old newspapers tmr.
at Tampines, blk 913.
so EARLY in the morning pulak tu.
grr.
oh wells.
at least it's for a good cause.

and i think im BALDING!
hahahahaha.

ooooh!i got this from saihah's blog!
(sorry babe, i loved it so i just had to share with everyone.heh...)

"So light a candle on your cake
For every smile you've helped create
For every heart and every soul
You've known to grow a little more
A few more pounds, a little more grey
Don't count the years just count the way
It takes a little time to go from water into wine
Don't ever lose the wonder of the child within your eyes..."

goodbye loves.

Monday, January 21, 2008

geram.
grr.
geram sangat,kalau orang buat mcm gitu.
takpe.
it's okay.
chill...
if i managed to survive last week,then hopefully this week would be easier.
ya Allah,please help.

bye.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

these feelings uh.sheesh.
everytime my phone beeps,
i get butterflies.
please go away...
you're not making it easy for me, dear butterflies.
please.
:'(

Jim Sturgess' been my remedy.
&The Beatles too.
youtube's of great help.
thanks youtube.*winkwink*

slowly...
but surely...
insya'allah.

bye love.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

thank God there's music.
The Beatles to be exact.
(:
i hate it when i have nothing to do.
especially at a time like this.
my mind will just wander.
geram.grr...
and it doesnt help that the exams are coming.

the weather has been a good reflection of how i've been feeling.
very low.
when it rains,it rains heavily.
when it's cloudy,the sky is only gonna get darker anytime soon.
Mr Sun has been quite shy it seems.

Oh Mr Sun...Sun.
Mr Golden Sun.
Please shine down on me...
Oh Mr Sun...Sun.
Mr Golden Sun.
Hiding behind the tree...

ever heard of Barney?aaah this one lah.
one of his many songs.
haha.

Tash has been a sweetheart.
thanks babe(:
you know i love you*winkwink*

i've got dikir next tuesday at 6pm.
some meeting.
hopefully most of the girls will turn up...

bye everyone.

It used to feel like heaven.
It used to feel like May.
I used to hear those violins playing heart strings like a symphony.
Now they've gone away.

Monday, January 14, 2008

nak marah, tak boleh.
nak marah kat siapa?marah kat diri sendiri ajalah jawabnya.
nak nangis, tunjuk kelemahan pulak.
tapi memang dah cengeng.apa nak buat?
nak mengadu, kena tunggu...
tunggu sampai si penglipur lara balik kerja.
waaduuh~serba-salah dibuatnya.
hai...apalah nasib hamba...
ish ish ishhh.
sekarang ni nak buat apa eh?
buat...buat bodoh!(haha)
oh bukan eh?
sekarang ni, inginku renungkan kembali.
renungkan apa yang telah terjadi...
terjadi sejak tempoh hari.
mungkin ada benarnya apa yang telah dikatakan.
mungkin juga ada hikmah disebaliknya.
jadi,apa yang akanku lakukan sekarang kawan-kawan?
tunggu.
tunggu dan lihat.
lihat bukan sahaja dengan mata tetapi juga dengan hati.
nak buat apa lagi?
senyum.
senyum dengan seikhlasnya.
senyum itu sedekah lah katakan...
(:
lepas tu?
three.
oh bukan lagi eh?
sorry.haha.
lepas tu kita serahkan sahaja kepada yang maha esa.
sabar liyana...sabar...
sabar itu separuh dari iman.
bukannya aku marah.
bukan.
tidak.
bukannya aku benci.
ish.lagi tidak.
tapi kesal.
kesal sedikit sajalah.
tapi aku suka!
perkara-perkara beginilah yang mewarnai hidupku yang tak exciting lagi boring.
haha!
baik liyana~
peace out!
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Sunday, January 13, 2008

just when i have the mood to blog again,just when i finished typing my long entry,the window just HAD to close.pfft!irritating shit!i wont be typing the whole thing again.tak sanggup aku...sorry.blogger bodoh.the entry was autosaved but i dont have a clue how to recover the post.so pissing off!sorry people.once im in the mood then i'll start blogging again.

but anyway...

Well open up your mind and see like me.
Open up your plans and damn you're free.
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love.
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me.
Ah, la peaceful melody.
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love.

jason mraz's I'm Yours.
lagu shiok habes,gua cakap sama lu!
im currently listening to it.
that explains the above lorr...
haha.
(:

the end.